I’m awesome….I am…This has been a year of improvement and progress for myself and I couldn’t have been happier with my results almost half way through the year.
I lost 31lbs since January 1, 2011…not a drastic amount and I’ve committed to dropping another 30lbs but considering the fact that I’ve only been GAINING FAT for the last 6 years I’m pretty damn proud of myself….and you should be proud of me too…I’ve been getting asked how I dropped fat and maintained muscle mass…and I’ll fill you in on my secret….1) I stopped eating like shit, removing all processed carbs from my diet 2) I didn’t make 100 changes at once, I eliminated and altered variables that hindered my progress (everybody loses fat and gains muscle differently, there’s no end all be all diet for everyone…sorry Dr. Atkins) 3) I lifted on average of three days a week and tried to get to BJJ twice a week, no two a days, no crazy metabolic workouts just awesome deadlifts and awesome arm bars 4) I didn’t stress over it, I just made it a priority and said no to my beloved ice cream sandwiches….there you have it….nothing crazy, I just took my own advice
This semester I received my highest GPA to date, 4.19….3 A+’s and 2 A’s….holy shit I’m awesome. I busted my ass and actually applied myself and low and behold I did the impossible…I ravaged each class and came out triumphant with my hand raised, doing a little dance that looks like this….what was different compared to my previous undergrad degree?!?!? 1) I actually did the work assigned and turned everything in on average one week ahead of time 2) I didn’t let petty bullshit distract me or take away from academics 3) I cut down on my work, leaving more time to study for exams and not turn shitty essays and projects written an hour before they’re due
I managed to work half the amount of hours I did in the past and made just as much money as before. At the beginning of the year one of my positions was cut from one of my jobs, I was shitting bricks….I make just enough money to pay bills and buy organic vegetables and I thought I was going to have to give up paying bills. Low and behold this was a blessing in disguise….I became an independent contractor at work and only worked when I had clients to train, leaving more room for studies and my other recreational activities like origami and jazzercise….I also took the advice of friends and started my own online training business, while this is still in the works, it has been a little extra income that hopefully will prove to be successful…and again I came out victorious doing a similar dance.
I suck….I do….I fuckin’ suck at life….not because of the awesomely amazing things I accomplished in personal and professional life this year but I suck because there was nothing stopping me before.
I ballooned from 200 to 231 after graduation in 2009 using powerlifting as an excuse and going apeshit on every box of ice cream sandwiches and oreos I could get my chubby little hands on, I also smoked black&milds everyday for no particular reason…I thought they were cool….they were just cheap and smelly….like I had been that year. There was nothing stopping me from losing weight or putting down the box of oreos…just myself….I was a walking contradiction as a personal trainer….a fucking abomination.
I graduated with a CRAPTASTIC GPA…I bullshitted all four years at ASU and came out with average grades, I sucked. I tried to blame it on everything else I possibly could….the role I had in the fraternity, my girlfriend, learning disabilities…but none of that is correct….I only held myself back, I waited to the last minute, I got drunk and partied on the weekends, hardly studied, and I spent way WAY too much time focusing on things that don’t even matter today…I could’ve graduated with honors, top of my class laughing and pointing down my finger at all the engineers and pre-med students graduating with a 3.9 but instead I sat there at graduation knowing I didn’t do shit with the last four years I spent there….holy shit I suck.
I suck….or at least I sucked….until I took responsibility for everything I had in my life and stopped blaming others for my shittiness. Truth be told there was nothing stopping me from being awesome before, just myself and the excuses I kept on repeating and repeating until I believed it to be true. I’m not saying you suck…you’re amazing for reading this and I thank you muchly….but I’m almost positive there are a few things you could be doing to improve yourself but you’re not because you keep on coming up with lame ass excuses to avoid the change…so stop it and be awesome!!!!!
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